Wednesday,

Another day of testing – both physically and spiritually. In an effort by the doctors to resolve Bonnie’s intestinal issues not much progress has been made. We are hopeful it is still from the chemo working itself out of Bonnie’s system, but it could be side effects of one of the many antibiotics or other meds she is taking. It becomes trial and error in indentifying what may be causing it. Meanwhile Bonnie is not consuming much in the way of food and what she does runs right through her. Her team of doctors has asked the hospital gastroenterologist to consult with Bonnie’s case tomorrow.

Sadly, Bonnie has not been out of bed for 2 ½ days and is very fatigued, which may be from the ending of steroids as the chemo ends or the intestinal issues are draining her. I say it is a combination of both.

We are in a wait and see stage. The next bone marrow biopsy is scheduled for this next Monday at 8:30. Please pray that Bonnie won’t be anxious thinking about this less than desirable procedure. Keep in mind this will be the third time so she has a really good idea of what to expect.

In yesterday’s blog post, I (Steve) referenced 3 x 5 cards Bonnie wrote scripture on along with her comments, during her initial round of chemo. The next installment is from 1 Timothy 6:15:

“God….is the blessed controller of all things. The King over all kings and the master of all masters.”

Following are the comments Bonnie made about this verse to be a continual reminder to herself as she entered into the more challenging phases of her disease:

“Who controls my life? God What kind of a controller is He? Blessed! Accepting from God’s hand what he sends because we know that He is good therefore it is good! Contentment!”

Contentment is the fuel that drives an everlasting peace. If we are content with where God has us no matter the circumstance; health, finances, children, friends, etc, then we have the peace to rest in God’s plan for our lives. We all have long term plans: grow old together, travel, enjoy grandchildren, etc., but God may have a different plan and we have to be content with it and accept it, not deny it and run from it. Do we have hope that Bonnie will be completely healed of this disease? Yes. Might we still grow old together, travel and enjoy grandchildren? Yes. Might none of these happen? Yes. We don’t know the outcome. We can though, be content knowing that this is out of our control and in control of a “blessed controller.”